Nick Cummins Says The Bachelor Affected His Mental Health
"I've never been in a mental space as low."
Nick Cummins had 'never felt so low'. Image: Channel 10Source:BodyAndSoul
It's been a tough few weeks for the Honey Badger.
In the wake of The Bachelor's shock finale - in which he chose neither of the two remaining girls, Brittany Hockley or Sophie Teiman - Nick Cummins went hiking in Papua New Guinea, escaping the media firestorm that ensued after the controversial episode went to air.
Appearing on The Sunday Project last night to "set the record straight", the former Wallaby revealed the entire experience had taken an unexpected toll on his mental health, explaining he had "never been in a mental space as low" as during his time filming the reality show.
“Definitely coming back from Kokoda was a bit of a surprise, I wasn’t ready for all the tabloids and that sort of carry-on,” he said. “I consider myself a pretty upbeat, energetic dude and all of a sudden you get the wind cut out of your sails.”
While he had anticipated a "bumpy road" when the girls, and the audience, were cheated out of their fairy-tale ending, Cummins said he still believed "there would be more understanding that there was".
Far from his usual upbeat self, the Honey Badger looked sombre as he explained the process of filming the show as emotionally draining, especially sending someone home "when you don't actually know them that well and they could be the one". "you're sending a nice girl home in tears. It's tough," he explained.
Despite being used to high pressure environments, having played rugby on an international stage and in front of big crowds, Cummins said the media scrutiny he had endured had been "a whole other beast".
“I’ve never been in a mental space as low as I have been on that show, especially towards the end of it,” he said.
He also revealed he didn’t sleep the night before the finale, torn between choosing one of them to “avoid a whole lot of drama” and doing what he thought was right.
“She’d be sitting here right now and people would be asking, ‘Are you in love?’ I don’t want to lie. You see the media, ‘Oh we saw he was hugging another girl, he must be having an affair.’ All this pressure on a relationship already on an unsteady foundation. I just can’t live like that. It’s not fair to her.”
Asked if he was seeing anyone knew, or secretly dating Brooke, Cummins dismissed the "tabloid" headlines, saying he was "I am very gun shy".
“What’s most important right now is to put my life on hold, set it to one side and actually nut out what this is, put it to bed. It’s gone on too far, jazzed up and exaggerated. I want people to know what it’s like, how I’m feeling, and why I chose my decision.”